It's cold. I'm probably setting a typing speed record as I try to warm up my fingers. I wonder if its possible to get frostbite in thirty degree weather.
Yes, it is only thirty degrees.
I may seem like a wimp to everyone reading this who is from colder regions than North Texas, but for me
, this is unpleasantly cold
This morning I was told by my mom to go to the barn and fetch something for her. Obviously, to get from the house to the barn it would require walking outside in the cold. I'd like to say that out of selfless love and angelic submission I obeyed without grumbling, but that would not be completely true. I did obey, but my attitude about it was much less than angelic. I wanted to protest and say, "Please mom, wait until it warms up," or "Why can't Tyler do it?" Yet I knew that it would be wrong for me to complain aloud to her, so I kept my mouth shut.
Being my mother, she had perfect right to tell me to do something for her. (After all, she did spend hours and hours giving birth to me. What kind of kid would I be if I repaid her with disobedience?) But then, as I contemplated this, I realized that she is more than my mother. She (along with my father) is the person God chose to be my governing authority. By obeying her, I obey God. By disobeying her, I disobey Him.
God commanded me through His Word to obey without grumbling. What kind of kid was I to disobey Him? In my devotions I had just read a piece by Bernard of Clairvaux, a twelfth century Christian and hymn writer. What he wrote has a great deal to do with this subject:
"Before the Word was made flesh, died on the Cross, came forth from the grave, and returned to His Father, the commandment had been uttered, 'Thou shalt love the Lord thy God with all thine heart, and with all of thy soul, and with all thy might.' And it was not unjust for God to claim this from His own work and gifts. Why should not the creature love the Creator, who gave him the power to love? Why should not he love Him with all his being, since it is by His gift alone that he can do anything that is good?
I owe all that I am to Him who made me: but how can I pay my debt to Him who redeemed me? What reward shall I give to my Lord for all the benefits that He has given me? In the first creation He gave me myself; but in His new creation, He gave me Himself, and by that gift, restored to me the self that I had lost.
Created first and then restored, I owe Him myself twice over in return for myself. But what have I to offer Him for the gift of Himself? If I could multiply myself a thousandfold and then give Him all, what would that be in comparison with God?"
Since God has done so much for me---more than I could ever imagine---how can I repay Him? The only thing I have is myself to give to Him. But am I even giving Him that much? Am I giving Him my best, meager as it is? Am I giving Him myself? When He commands me to act, do I obey quickly? Do I obey Him out of wanting to appear godly to others and to appease my Pharisee-like inclinations? Or do I complain in my heart?
I did not grumble outwardly to my mother this morning, for I knew it would cause her displeasure. But even when I grumble inwardly, He reads my inner thoughts and intentions. He knows exactly how much of myself I am submitting to Him. As I see my own unwilling heart, I see how desperately I need to change and approach God's commands differently.
A friend of my mother's was imparting to a group of several younger women a bit of wisdom regarding this subject. She said, "I do not want to have to always wear a dress so as to appear feminine, but I pray that if that is what God wants me to do, that I will obey and put His will above our own." In our quest to become conformed to God's desire for biblical femininity, I pray that we are all following God with an open mind, disregarding our own desires so that we can willingly obey Him.Posted by Hannah